Caring for the Elderly Part 14
It has been over a year since I’ve written about this subject. The last post was about my late Father’s funeral. Since then life has gone on and my Mother’s ongoing care has become a fixed and somewhat uneventful regime. There are benefits to be gained from such a routine as it offers stability and certainty for both the carer and person being cared for. However, recently there has been a significant change in the status quo that warrants writing about. As always, my desire is to share some points and present my personal experiences in the hope that they may prove useful and informative to those in a similar situation or who may be just embarking upon their caring journey. The main subject of this post is a difficult one and something that is very hard to come to terms with. It is dementia. A medical condition that affects 1 in 6 people over the age of 80 in the UK.
It has been over a year since I’ve written about this subject. The last post was about my late Father’s funeral. Since then life has gone on and my Mother’s ongoing care has become a fixed and somewhat uneventful regime. There are benefits to be gained from such a routine as it offers stability and certainty for both the carer and person being cared for. However, recently there has been a significant change in the status quo that warrants writing about. As always, my desire is to share some points and present my personal experiences in the hope that they may prove useful and informative to those in a similar situation or who may be just embarking upon their caring journey. The main subject of this post is a difficult one and something that is very hard to come to terms with. It is dementia. A medical condition that affects 1 in 6 people over the age of 80 in the UK.
Dementia is a term used to describe a spectrum of symptoms affecting memory, thinking and social abilities severely enough to interfere with a patient's daily life. It isn't a specific disease per se. Several diseases can cause dementia. Though dementia generally involves memory loss, such symptoms have many different causes. Having memory loss alone doesn't mean you have dementia, although it's often one of the early signs of the condition. Alzheimer's disease is the most common cause of a progressive dementia in older adults but there are a number of other causes of dementia. Damage to or loss of nerve cells connected to the brain is the most common. Depending on which part of the brain is damaged, dementia can affect people differently and cause different symptoms. Depending on the cause, some dementia symptoms can be reversible. Others are progressive.
Due to my Mother’s lack of mobility she spends her days confined to one room. Each day she is washed and dressed with the assistance of carers and then transferred from her hospital bed to an orthopaedic chair in her room. Reading is her main form of entertainment. Due to her failing eyesight and hearing she has abandoned TV and music. She sadly reached this state of health just as the pandemic started in early 2020, so most of the home support services that usually are available have not been accessible. Hence visitors, day trips outside of the home, access to activity groups and physiotherapy have not been a regular option. Hence her engagement with the world is limited to myself, my sister and a handful of carers. Occasionally there have been visits from wider family but most of her peers and her own family have died. At the age of 91, my Mother has found herself socially isolated by ill health and circumstance. Her days are long, uneventful and she has nothing but her own thoughts and memories to reflect upon.
We all talk to ourselves from time to time when alone, and so I did not think it unusual when my Mother initially started doing this. Considering her environment and routine, it seemed quite logical. However, last weekend I noticed that it was a far more complicated dialogue that she was having. Instead of making the odd comment to jolly herself along like “oh you’ve lost your place in the book again. Where did I put that bookmark”, her conversations started becoming clearly addressed to third parties. Furthermore, these conversations were clearly upsetting her. Then this week, the morning carers started noticing that my Mother was agitated and engaged in arguments with people who were not there. She would become quite upset and cry. So when a convenient opportunity presented itself, I decided to broach the subject with her when she was having a calm moment. I was both heartbroken and fascinated by her comments.
My Mother is currently hearing voices. It would appear that her inner monologue and her subconscious thoughts are manifesting themselves as external voices. You or I may sometimes think when we’re down “have I made the right choices in my life” or “what will become of me”. For my Mother these thoughts manifest themselves as voices, external to herself. Often they will be the voices of deceased family members and friends. Often the conversations are very negative. It would appear the voices are encouraging her to be distrustful and are misleading her. What made this all the more troubling is that as my Mother told me this, she was lucid and clear. She paused from time to time because she was hearing another conversation in parallel while explaining things to me. Furthermore, she knows that this situation isn’t right and suspects that she is unwell. When I suggested she may have an infection she said quite candidly, “No, this is my imagination talking to me and I can’t stop it. I’m old and broken”.
Needless to say I called the family Doctor’s Surgery and a GP came to the home and thoroughly examined my Mother. No signs of an infection were found and subsequent tests have proven negative. My Mother may have had another stroke but the diagnosis is currently pointing to dementia. It does run in my Mother’s family. She has been referred to the Frailty Clinic. This specialist team conducts a Comprehensive Geriatric Assessment process to understand a person’s health and social care needs. The assessment enables early interventions to be tailored-made to the individual, to optimise their health and ensure a better quality of life. Interventions can include changes to medication, referral onto other services as well as discussing preferences for future care. The appointment is followed with a letter to the GP, summarising the clinic assessment outcomes and any recommendations. As present this service may be reduced due to current COVID-19 precautions but it does sound hopeful and interesting.
If my Mother is confirmed to have dementia and that the long term prognosis is that it will get worse over time, then the immediate practical question is how does this impact upon her ongoing care at home. Initial discussions with the Doctor focused upon whether my Mother is a danger to herself. At present this is not the case therefore, if we set aside for a moment my Mother’s auditory hallucinations and the upset it causes her, her daily care needs can be met. The carers are used to dealing with patients with such symptoms and so far my Mother’s eating and recreational habits have remained the same. However, one cannot ignore the emotional trauma that both my Mother, myself and my sister feel about the reality of the situation. I think the most harrowing aspect at present is that my Mother knows that she is not well.
I count myself fortunate that I live in a Borough where the NHS support services are quite robust. My local Doctors Surgery are also invaluable. So far everything that has been discussed as far as treatment has been done. A District Nurse came earlier today to take bloods to do comprehensive testing. I don’t feel abandoned in any way by the authorities. Maintaining a positive outlook, supporting my Mother and keeping an eye on my Sister’s wellbeing is a harder task. I find that if I engage with my Mother she stays relatively calm. However, I cannot be with her all day, everyday as I have other people dependent upon me. At present I am adopting a very “here and now” approach to this situation and I feel that is the best policy. Deal with things as and when they occur and don’t worry about what may happen a month or two from now. Writing about things is also a useful means for me to come to terms with them. In the meantime I shall keep concentrating on supporting my Mother.
Thoughts on Blogging Part 14
By the time that August rolls around this year, I will have been actively blogging and generally sharing my writing online for 14 years. Prior to that, back in the eighties, I was involved in the production of several fanzines. That was indeed a labour of love and although I was happy to write the content, the work involved in physically creating the actual pages was tough. The printing costs were also an early lesson in how writing is not an immediate path to fame and fortune. All things considered, writing has been a major aspect of my life for as long as I can remember. I used to enjoy writing stories as a child and then as I got older I discovered the pleasure of a well constructed essay. I was fortunate to have three very good English teachers during my time at school, who were passionate about their job and very encouraging.
By the time that August rolls around this year, I will have been actively blogging and generally sharing my writing online for 14 years. Prior to that, back in the eighties, I was involved in the production of several fanzines. That was indeed a labour of love and although I was happy to write the content, the work involved in physically creating the actual pages was tough. The printing costs were also an early lesson in how writing is not an immediate path to fame and fortune. All things considered, writing has been a major aspect of my life for as long as I can remember. I used to enjoy writing stories as a child and then as I got older I discovered the pleasure of a well constructed essay. I was fortunate to have three very good English teachers during my time at school, who were passionate about their job and very encouraging.
Since the New Year I have struggled not so much with writing but more with my motivation to write. I don’t have a shortage of ideas. As ever there’s plenty to talk about. However, there seems to be an ongoing decline in longform posts, providing criticism and analysis. You’ll still find them on commercial websites such as Kotaku but they’re not so prevalent among the blogging community. Some bloggers do still tackle the big subjects and the controversies that so often accompany them but in my experience, lengthy thoughtful posts seem to be falling out of favour. Furthermore, due to the cyclical nature of popular culture and the various leisure industries, all too often you find yourself repeating yourself as a writer or covering familiar ground. The things that I enjoy and love to write about have become as partisan as other parts of public discourse, which does rob them of their charm.
Hence, the current malaise I’ve experienced has had an impact upon my productivity. However my output has remained the same for the last six months. I usually write about 16 or so posts a month although I have recently started trying to maintain a daily schedule. However, since May I have noticed a noticeable drop in traffic to Contains Moderate Peril. Statistics are not my primary motivator when it comes to my writing but they do play a part. It is reassuring to know that posts are being read and that an audience does exist. However, after giving this matter some thought, I think the drop in traffic is due to people returning to their formal places of work and rather than losing pageviews, the numbers are simply returning to pre COVID-19 levels. So in the last week or so I’ve felt more positive about writing. I have especially enjoyed a couple of posts that I’ve written that just seem to pour out of me without any problems.
Today the Blaugust 2021 Festival of Blogging was formally announced. I shall compose a more comprehensive blog post “bigging up” this enjoyable community activity in the next few days. However, it has already had a positive effect as new members have signed up to the event and also joined the Discord server. Meeting new writers and sharing ideas is a major shot in the arm and provides a lot of encouragement and motivation for all concerned. It is important to encourage more people to write and express themselves as it is an invaluable life skill. Plus there is a natural attrition that happens within the blogging community. Writing is a commitment that takes time and effort and real life often competes with both of those things. Hopefully this year’s Festival of Blogging will be well attended and received, drawing attention to the merits of writing, ensuring that our community continues to survive.
